Category: General

I ran out of spoons before noon today. Ugh.

I went back to bed – despite the beautiful day – to see if I could rustle up a few more. Wanderer was great. I don’t think he even knew what I was on about, but he jumped into bed, played ‘little spoon’ for a while, got out of bed, said: “Consider yourself spooned”, and went on his merry way.

For someone in the position I’m in, I don’t think a lot about how many spoons I have or how I’m using them. Thanks to my bipolar, the number of spoons I have from day to day can vary a lot.

This week? The spoon gods have not been generous.

The thing is, I don’t want to apologise anymore. I don’t want to feel guilty. Spoon supply issues are spoon supply issues. I don’t think I’m breaking any hearts by not posting here as much as I want to.

More than that, I want to reach out and say hello to those who don’t have a lot of spoons to spare. For you to use up a spoon on reading my ramblings here is an honour that I am not equipped to accurately describe in words.

You are amazing. I wish I could give you spoons.

Spoons for all.

Zine Ninja approves.

(You have no idea what I’m on about? Read The Spoon Theory.)

Aw, duck. And I was doing so well with keeping up with the ol’ zine reviews on Thursdays and Fridays.

I was so, so sore and tired on Thursday and Friday, and I didn’t want to bring that to the zines I’m going to review. I didn’t feel like that was the right energy (or lack thereof) to have while reviewing. Maybe I think too much about it, but I want to be the reviewer that I would reviewing my zines.

Ugh. Trying to brain and make the words.

I’ve been trying to focus on my health this week and figuring out if this mystical ‘10,000 steps’ thing is something doable in the World of Nyx. The Nyxus. I’m keeping that. The Nyxus is made up of writing books, making zines, doing graphic design and book design work, play time consisting of PC games… I think you can see where I’m going. My work, my play… A lot of it involves sitting down.

I did have a go at some 10,000 step days – hence the being so sore stuff. It was a good kind of pain, though, if you know what I mean. I earned it.

So that’s what I’ve been up to. It takes me hours of walking to get that many steps, which meant my work stuff got pushed back. I’m still trying to sort out the whole ‘how to be healthy and get my work done’ (no, I cannot afford to build or buy a standing/treadmill/whatever desk), but I am trying to do it in a way that will still let me keep up with the blog here (because I big fuzzy love hearts this place and all the people who pop by) as well as do the things I want to do.

I hope everyone has been doing well. If you haven’t been, I hope you have some awesome comfort ____. Whatever it takes to remind you that you are awesome.

My friend, Kickass, is amazing and got me a f*cking dragon friendship ring.

DRAGON FRIENDSHIP RING

It totally goes with the tattoo on my back.

29 is not too old for a friendship ring. Pft.

No happy mail today – and the local post office is under construction to boot! – but not all was lost. It’s hard to be grumpy on such a beautiful day. Zine Ninja and I have been soaking up the sunshine – even if we don’t get as much work done.

I know people get a lot of crap for taking pictures of their food, but this is (was) a gorgeous cupcake, and I am sharing.

Another birthday, another year of life gone by.

Birthdays always leave me feeling introspective but this one especially so. Now it’s not so much what to do in my next year of life so much as what do I want to accomplish before I turn 30.

I feel like I didn’t accomplish as much as I wanted between 28 and 29, so I definitely don’t want a repeat year in that sense. What I do want… Well, I’m not sure about that, either.

I am indecisive as fuck.

Ah, well. We’ll see what happens.

With WordPress, you can reblog stuff, but this beauty is located in the world of Blogger. So here’s a quote, and there’s a link at the end…

It is the last day of July – the last day of IZM . Some of us got a lot done and some of us did a few activities. What is important is we all celebrated the love of zines. I tried a few new techniques, released a new zine, shared my zines and thought of new zine ideas!

On this last day I wanted to share the varied responses to the question: why do you make zines? Throughout the years I have gotten to know so many zine makers from different scenes and I find the only thing connecting us at times is a zine. But zines make a strong bonding glue!

Why I make zines: zines are my voice when I do not feel like I want to communicate with others. It is a way to reach out, share my ideas and have a voice from the comfort of my house. I started reading/making/contributing to goth zines in the 90s. It took me awhile to make my own – I had to get over some insecurities (something I still battle with) and just do it!

Read more at MissMuffcake

I so have this being sick thing down. So much so that I’m totally over it now.

A different antibiotic, a lot more sleep and more time have me finally feeling human again. At least, human enough to be really pissed off that most of my July was lost to sleep or feeling like crap. Not happy at all, but it’s gone now, so…

Good things are on there way. I have the second print runs of Dear Anonymous 3 and Don’t Call Me Cupcake nearly ready to sew. I’ve also started cracking on Don’t Call Me Cupcake 2. There have been a few submissions for Dear Anonymous 4 as well. Busy, busy!

More to come soon.